I just had a piece of my art returned to me and I'm not sure what to think about.

"The Tree", one of my favorite paintings. I feel hurt and kind of sad. I worked a long time on that one and also put a lot of thought and caring into it, and it was created specifically for that one person.

At the same time, it really is one of my favorites so I'm slightly happy to get to put it up. But I guess the fact of the matter is, though it's beautiful, I didn't make it for myself. It wasn't meant to be kept by me.

We were unpacking, into our new house, and a couple days in as we were getting groceries out of her trunk, I recognized a corner of the back of it, laying face down. "What's that doing here?....He didn't want it anymore?...." It was painful.

It's hard to have it returned like that, because with art you can't really strip away the feeligns that went into making it.

It's painful to look at, but also beautiful. I'm torn.