theAnguissette

Holy crap! Every time I come back to deviantART I feel like a completely different person from the last time I visited. I always look at my journal entries and feel like a stranger wrote them. I also always feel like a jerk for abandoning such a lovely and magical website. Sorry!

Anyway, here I am, back again.

For any interested, things are going great for me. I've moved from Monterey to Berkeley to be with my beloved boyfriend Voroignis. I live in a badass house with a total of 7 people, all of us fantastic friends. We have fun times always and it's great because I'm never lonely and if we want to party all we have to do is say "Hey, who's home? Lets have fun!" and POW, it's a marvelous time!

I'm going back to school at John F. Kennedy University, which is where my mom finished her degree. They're helpful and supportive and seem to really want to give me a degree, so I like that. My major there is called "Social Ecology" which was the closest to my past Political Science/International Relations type degree.

I worked at a grooming salon for a while which was cool because I love animals and enjoyed getting to hang out with dogs all day. The part I didn't like was the customers, they were often lame. Also, I got the shit bit out of my hand by a Bull Mastiff named Mighty Joe McLovin. I still like Mighty Joe though and hold no grudge. My hand might be perma-scarred though. Meh.

I left that job though because I was offered a job with the U.S. Census Bureau where I made nearly triple the money I was making grooming and got to sort of be my own boss in the sense that I chose when to work and then went off on my own to do my job, and then billed the government where apparently they trust random people to tell them what hours they worked. So awesome. I never lied about my hours but I'm certain that many people added some extra time here and there. The down side to working that job is that it was guaranteed temporary and could end at almost any time. It seems to have done that recently, but I'm looking for another job and will get unemployment in the meantime, which is nice. Hopefully I'll get another job ASAP and it will rock, I'm confident that things will work out.

One of my best friends just got married this month, which kind of freaks me out a bit but is totally awesome. It's kind of interesting living with a married couple now. I mean, it's not actually different at all, but it's strange to hear people so close to me all like "my husband" and "my wife" and such. I was the "ring bearer wrangler" in the wedding (as well as the official unofficial wedding planner), which was chill because it was super small and there weren't bridal parties or anything like that. So I walked her dog and a small boy down the aisle because they couldn't be trusted to do it on their own, which is fair. After the wedding we went on a really great camping trip for a couple of days and it was wonderful fun.

I'm not doing much art these days, but hopefully that'll change (especially since I'm currently unemployed).

Speaking of being unemployed, does anyone have suggestions for places that will hire people with purple hair (other than Hot Topic)? Any advice will be much appreciated.

Anyway, that's about it for now, I'd say. Feels good to be "back"!

AN ADDITION:
I don't understand why people must be so upset all of the time. I decided to share an extremely cool thing on the forums that I thought people would enjoy and I instantly got harassed by people. The silliest part is that if they had bothered to check it out, they would probably have been stoked, but I don't think that they even read it. I was clearly misunderstood. I suppose that it's just "the way" of forums, but it certainly casts a depressing shadow on my potential return to DA. I sort of want to crawl into a little hidey hole in a corner and not come out. Obviously my absence made me forget what forums are like. Ohhhh well!

I just had a piece of my art returned to me and I'm not sure what to think about.

"The Tree", one of my favorite paintings. I feel hurt and kind of sad. I worked a long time on that one and also put a lot of thought and caring into it, and it was created specifically for that one person.

At the same time, it really is one of my favorites so I'm slightly happy to get to put it up. But I guess the fact of the matter is, though it's beautiful, I didn't make it for myself. It wasn't meant to be kept by me.

We were unpacking, into our new house, and a couple days in as we were getting groceries out of her trunk, I recognized a corner of the back of it, laying face down. "What's that doing here?....He didn't want it anymore?...." It was painful.

It's hard to have it returned like that, because with art you can't really strip away the feeligns that went into making it.

It's painful to look at, but also beautiful. I'm torn.

I really wanted to replace that depressing journal that was infecting my front page, that's no good!

I'm doing much better than I was when that was posted, though things are still pretty rough. For any interested, Trav and I have been doing really well hanging out as friends since our break-up. I think it would've been a lot worse if I never got to hang out with or see him again, but luckily things didn't go down that way and we talk every day. Hooray! lol

School is going to start soon, hopefully my last semester of college. I'm not looking forward to starting school, but I'm DAMN excited that it'll be over for good soon, potentially. Summer has been fun, filled with lots of changes and surfing and moving and hanging out and drinking, etc. I'm excited to be busier though, summer's been filled with cool activities, but a lot of it has left me little antsy.

[NERD UPDATE]: Warhammer Online finally has a launch date and I'm so exciiited! It's set to come out Sept. 18. However, since my awesome self went and pre-ordered the other day, I get to get into the Open Beta probably sometime soon this month. I also get special items and get to start the game before the general public gets to. I'm pretty psyched about that because I need extra time to figure out what class I'll be making my main anyway. Pre-ordering was funny because all the men working at GameStop pretty much stopped helping everyone else when obvious gaming knowledge starting pouring out of me as I harassed the guy for not giving me my Beta key and all my other pre-order goodies. Apparantly, they were out of the pre-order packs which come with all the awesome extras, and just as I started to get sad the manager opened some cabinet and gave me what was clearly some other poor sap's copy that was supposed to be saved for him. I LOVE being a girl gamer. I didn't think we were such an oddity anymore, but then little moments like this remind me that I'm a rare species when you compare male/female ratios of gamers. Anyway, I'm excited for the game and happy I didn't have to run around town for the pre-order box. [END NERDERY]

You might notice I'm finally adding some new art, lately. Most of these things are not new at all, but just little things that I neglected to ever put up. I'm working on several new paintings currently, and I'm hoping they turn out the way that I see them in my head. If they do, then I can guarantee that they'll be badass.

Anyway, enjoy my new doodles and paintings and I'll update you all again soon!

Sorry I haven't been around, I've just been feeling a bit lost lately. I'll get back in the swing of things, though. No worries.

Thanks so much for all the support.

My boyfriend, who I love very intensely, is leaving me. He's been moving out the past two days an I believe this is going to be his last here...And then we're through, and I can't have him anymore.

I've never been dumped before, I hate not having the control of deciding when something that huge in my life changes. This hurts so much more than letting someone go. I was silly, I used to think that breaking up with someone might be close to as horrible as being broken up with. What a rediculous thought. Perhaps this is payback for all of the hearts that I've broken.

I've rejected plenty of people, then I finally found the one I wanted to keep, and he doesn't want to keep me.